First things first. Today is our 4 year wedding anniversary. Uh, that is, mine and my Handsomeness’s. We are truly, TRULY bff’s and I’m not even kidding. We live in this bubble and no one’s allowed in…except for Gavin and I LOVE it. We always have each others back and our number 1 goal is to see that the other reaches their full potential, no matter what. His dreams are my dreams and mine are his. With that said, I’m so excited for this weekend! My mommy’s coming in to town to watch lil guy and we’re just totally free to do whatever we want! I tell you what, freedom was something i REALLY took for granted before having babies. We’re gonna get back to basics, as they say. Dinners, movies(lots of movies), shopping, maybe roadtripin it…who knows! I do know that we can do whatever we want, and that is exhilarating in and of itself.
So, while we’re on the theme of “special days,” yesterday was pretty special. After hrs and hrs of research, reviews and stocking Jose Villa and Elizabeth Messina (my 2 favorite photographers), I made a pretty big purchase. I bought me a Carl Ziess 50mm Planar T 1.4 ZE lens!!!! Apparently, because I’m such a good stalker, I found out that Jose and Elizabeth shoot on Carl Zeiss lenses and swear by them. They, of course, shoot mostly film, which is why their pictures are beyond gorgeous and hard for a digital shooter to ever come close to recreating, but I figured this would be as close as I could get for now, until i make the transition to film (which i WILL do, believe me). After further research, it became clear that the Zeiss 50 mm may be just about the sharpest lens out there. The Germans know their glass, I tell you what. This lens is beautiful and STURDY! Because its 100% manual focus (yeah, like the old days, back when you had to actually work to get the shots), the body is composed entirely of metal, which means this bad boy, provided its taken care of, should last a lifetime. I can’t tell you how good it feels to have made this decision. I love photography like a fat kid loves cake and to make the transition from having autofocus as an option to investing in such a nice lens as my priamary lens that doesn’t, well, it just tickles me pink. To challenge myself in this way, it can only make me better, more confidant, more aware and thoughtful of the shots I’m taking. Next stop, Contax 645 film camera. One step at a time though, I will get there and it will be worth every frustrating second when I do.
I’m so excited to get back to the basics this weekend. The basics of just being with my handsome, on OUR schedule and remembering what its like to be just the 2 of us, for just a little while. The basics of photography, shooting manual in both camera and lens, all while simultaneously getting comfortable and perfecting my craft, opening the door to film. The basics of enjoying everything this weekend will have to offer and at the end of the day, being able to come home to my beautiful baby boy and wonderful mommy and to never miss another second of the freedom I had before I became a mommy.